atomic mama

For some time now, I’ve been struggling with the challenges posed by adding Cooper to our family. Last week, after a series of events, I made the heart-wrenching decision to find her a new home. I contacted Seattle Pug Rescue and asked them about their surrender process. They walked me through it in a very matter-of-fact way, and said that they have thirty families paper-ready (including homestudy!) to adopt pugs. Sixty families in process. Yes, they actually do home visits. They would find the perfect home for Cooper.

They picked her up this morning.

I cried hard when she left, but I know it’s the right thing. For Cooper. For Lina. For Lily. We’d gotten to the point where we were basically having to keep both Lina and Lily separated from Cooper for their own protection. Cooper acted out because she didn’t know what else to do. She wanted me all to herself, something she could never have here. But something she will be able to have with someone else.

The house is quiet now. Cooper’s absence is palpable. A mixture of emptiness and relief. We are all exhaling. Lina is napping. And Lily is curled up next to me, something she hasn’t been able to do peacefully for a long time.

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