atomic mama

Lina will be napping for at least another hour. Let us drink coffee, and let us add bourbon to it. Amen.

Yesterday I pushed the envelope by taking Lina grocery shopping after swimming lessons. I mean immediately afterward, which means that my butt was wet as I was walking around the grocery store because it is physically impossible for me to get both of us warm and dry after swimming without prolonged screaming (Lina’s, not mine), [...]

Jon Kabat-Zinn, in Everyday Blessings: The Inner Work of Mindful Parenting, is encouraging me to think of parenting as if it were one long mindfulness meditation retreat. Parenting is perhaps especially suited to this due to its moments of stress, emotional hooks, and repetitive cycles. The idea is to act with intention and be aware [...]

I have been Lina’s mother for two months, although I am still figuring out what that means. One interesting change I have noticed is this: I experience some of my favorite poetry differently now. Pretty trippy. I’m a poetry junkie, and appreciate that a good poet can express worlds in very few words. There are [...]

My relatively new state of “mama-ness” is finally starting to feel like home. Notice I said Starting To. Those of you that know me well know that I come at everything with way more analysis than is necessary or advisable. That I’m generally found standing at the platform as the train leaves the station, biting [...]